MY WORLD…!

Like this song. It inspires e somehow after trying to figure out the exact moment my life got so messed up!!! Well, YOU may take the razor and sign your name across my wrist so everyone will know who left me like this!!!I hide the cuts, the bruises, the scars; you chose new love over me.
My heart does bleed for being eternally betrayed….

                   Taylor Swift                     

Picture To Burn lyrics

State the obvious
I didn’t get my perfect fantasy
I realize you love yourself more than you could ever love me
So go and tell your friends that I’m obsessive and crazy
That’s fine, I’ll tell mine you’re gay
By the way

I hate that stupid old pick up truck you never let me drive
You’re a redneck heartbreak
Who’s really bad at lying
So watch me strike a match on all my wasted time
As far as I’m concerned you’re just another picture to burn.

There’s no time for tears
I’m just sitting here planning my revenge
There’s nothing stopping me
From going out with all of your best friends.
And if you come around
Saying sorry to me
My daddy’s gonna show you how sorry you’ll be

‘Cause I hate that stupid old pick up truck you never let me drive
You’re a redneck heartbreak
Who’s really bad at lying
So watch me strike a match on all my wasted time
As far as I’m concerned you’re just another picture to burn.

And if you’re missing me
You better keep it to yourself
Cuz coming back around here
Would be bad for your health

‘Cause I hate that stupid old pick up truck you never let me drive
You’re a redneck heartbreak
Who’s really bad at lying
So watch me strike a match on all my wasted time
In case you haven’t heard

I really really hate that stupid old pick up truck you never let me drive
You’re a redneck heartbreak
Who’s really bad at lying
So watch me strike a match on all my wasted time
As far as I’m concerned you’re just another picture to burn

Baby burn

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You took things from me that I will never get back. I allowed you to come inside and explore my deepest thoughts. After I allowed you in my life, you took it and used it for your gain.You always follow what I do and I really hate that way. How can I ever stop you from crushing my soul????Are you pulling me down??? Are you holding me up???Or are you slowly drowning me???

You swallowed your own words.Thanks, I was now left alone with cold blank stare!!! You made me swear into dust!!!! Cut me out of your life!!! Maybe when you find out that I’m dead, you’ll realize what you did to me. My soul is yours to slowly rip apart!!!

 Now, my heart is broken into pieces as I try to hold my tears back. I cannot move or speak these things I want to say and I can’t explain them anyway!!!I struck the glass and broke the bones inside my fist to feel fine.

If my words even reach you I’ll assume you don’t care!!!!

 I wonder if anyone would care if I just went away….

CALLL it KARMA (Silverstein)

I like this song…Love this part in their lyrics!!!

It makes me scream my frustrations aloud!!!

  ”Goodbye old friend
goodbye goodnight
I’ll move on
you’ll call it fate, I’ll call it karma
we had our time, it was fun
while it lasted … “I’ll look back, with honor
and no regrets
I won’t be mad, won’t feel bad
these memories will never leave me
don’t be sad.
cause life goes on, until it reaches HELL!!!! 

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          There might be something wrong with me!!! I know it would just end up HURTING myself. I try to escape reality but I found myself gettin’ caught by misery and I can feel my hatred reach out, longing now for flesh and blood!!!I really hate the fact that I like the ones that I’m not supposed to like…damn!!!!! You better use your brain to see I’m in pain!!!!!!!

No one ever could ever fix this, even myself cannot!!!!I need something I can use to kill my thoughts before they turn from good to worse but then things are getting worse!!!

HATE, LOVE, CONFUSED, DEPRESSED, BORED, BROKEN…I can’t explain myself at all!

My dreams are fading. My hopes disappearing and I’m scared of living…I’m done faking!!!

I lie there unconscious, motionless, starring into empty space…LIFELESS!!!I’m trying so hard to pick myself up but I’m stuck!!!

Inside I’m screaming, frustrated with hate, blinded by burdens, and plagued by tears!!!!!!!!!

i’ve got nothing to do… i have no one to talk to, no one to tell. i was left alone with a cold blank stare ..i don’t know what happened to me, i used to be so cheerful, but I’m not anymore, especially not today. damn! boredom kills me. i was in deep sorrow, wondering why….i was trapped by the thoughts of a dark world!!!!

i’m the one who is adjusting always but it always ended up that i’m torturing myself for others!!i’m tired of pretending to be alright…my body’s wrecked and beaten . i become sick of everybody else. it is YOU, YOU, YOU!!!!!.. and only me who knows it.

all my rage, all my hate..i want to released them..lots of pressure, lots of stupidity inside my head. I am in a strange mood.. I need to escape, gotta find my way out!!!!!!no one could ever help and save me but only  MYSELF!

more foolishness ideas to write…but have to end this up. im destroying my mind in desperate attempts to understand this!!!

I feel so ashamed to say so…

-But they’re all my doing.

Friends…. it’s always be there for one another.

But what if they argue with each other???

Is there any reason to stay???

or just let it fade away???

This world is so cruel,

No one cares about who you really are.

All you want to do is scream,

Even though you can’t.

People are arguing.

Every piece of the puzzle is missing.

There were fights and even disagreements.

Is it goodbye to happy moments?

 The puzzle just broke.

They choke the word they spoke.

 Piece by piece it fell apart,

Hurting each other’s HEART!

I found the pieces reconnecting with new pieces.

Trying ti fit to have togetherness.

Others were left torn and shattered.

It will soon it disappeared.

They cannot understand each other.

I better not bother.

Hatred is over their heart!!!!!

some wants to fall apart!

No words could I use to help me explain

What it does to me to see you in pain.

You’re not there anymore my dearest friend

 I hate to say this but this is our end!!!

..I Was Right Lyrics

by: New Years Day

That i was right and you were wrong, it’s no that hard, go on, go on

    love this song!!!its similar w/ the songs of PARAMORE!!!

    like them both!!!!!hehehe..

     as long as they rock my WORLD !!!

TO ALL MY BACKSTABBERS,

I appreciate what you’ve done for me over the years although at the time I tasted the poison of your betrayal it felt harder than anything else to bear.

Unfortunately I know some of your names and faces and that fact will remain with me forever since knowledge is a terrible thing, good and bad. It’s like toothpaste – once it’s out, it’s impossible to push it back to where it came from.

Thanks to your personal attacks, I was forced to stop on my tracks and think about what I took for granted or sacred in my life, more so than my true loved ones could ever do.

I considered in great pain all your rumors, allegations, the things you’ve said behind my back to cause me lose something or whatever!!!!. You’ve forced me to look into my raw wounds with an unflinching eye and take a massive inventory of my mind and my soul.

In there I found many things perfectly pure and innocent of any evil. Many joys and pleasant blessings that still defines today who I am, thank you.

Yet I’ve also found in there plenty to improve, to buff and shine to a brilliance that I didn’t know I was capable of doing.

So, although your numbers are very few thankfully and you usually scamper away to more precious morsels when I neglect you and refuse to turn back your arrows, your positive impact on my growth has been significant.

May all who yearn for growth and light be tested against your blessed adversity like a rusty piece of blade becomes the perfect sword it is when tested against the illuminating resistance of the sharpening stone.

May God bless you for your precious presence in my past and your inadvertent teaching of forgiveness and peace.

Amen…

……Vulnerable

-please check this out!!!

this is one of my favorite songs..hope you appreciate it!!!thanks!!!….this really made me cry and i keep on  playing this song over and over again….

Share with me the blankets that your wrapped in
because its cold outside cold outside its cold outside
share with me the secrets that you kept in
because its cold inside cold inside its cold inside

tell me tell me
what makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that your so sure
please don’t tell me that I am the only one that’s vulnerable
impossible

wat is that all about ….????

hmmm….i dont know how to start this..i just enter to my blog site just to write something…well,my day is really messed up..

it is usual as the same way like for the past few days..it some kinda freakin’ fucking day again..

i’ve meet hundred of  blurred faces…hmmmm,who are they???

even me cannot answer that!my  head is aching that it will burst..!!!it eat me alive that it continue running my nerves and veins..im out of my mind…i just need someone to talk with..but for sure, i will just stare at them…that’s what im always doing…

so what ???

tomorrow will be another day again..i dont know what will happen..that’s all i can say…..

better speak out what’s on your mind!!!!

AMBER PACIFIC LYRICS

I never dreamt it’d be this ay
I’ve lost any chance for me to say
To say that I miss you, say that I love you
Will someone please tell me I’m okay

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I’ll make your darkest days so bright
I’m in your heart tonight

I never thought that this could go
And take me away from all I know
And leave me to think I’m on my own
But your love will take me, you were the one…

…Who sat through nights
You held me tight
And made sure I’m okay
And I thank you for the love you gave to me

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I’ll make your darkest days so bright
I’m in your heart tonight…

Tonight…